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Post by mattie on Aug 9, 2012 16:53:40 GMT -5
This was it. I was leaving. I was going back home to Ireland. I had to leave everything and everyone I had met here and just leave. It was killing me. Sitting on the benches in the courtyard, tears streamed down my fair that was once covered with makeup. Connor would be in here in an hour to pick me up and take me to the airport and I would no longer be part of America. Pulling my face from my hands, I pulled my phone from my bag and texted Ethan to say goodbye, the goodbye that would hurt me the most.
Im in the courtyard, will you come and see me, please? -Carlin
He had no idea yet that I was leaving. My parents had informed me of there decision a little bit over a week ago but I didn't have the guts to tell Ethan I was leaving. I didn't want to hurt him, but I admit, I was being selfish and wanted to hold on for as long as I could. I buried my face in my hands and tried to stop as much crying as I could. I didn't want to leave, no matter what. |
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Post by Tori on Aug 9, 2012 19:39:31 GMT -5
Ethan  I hadnt seen Carlin for a little bit and was missing her. I got her text and was immediately worried. be there in a sec. what's wrong??I sent the text and practically ran to the courtyard. "Carlin?" I said as I wrapped my arms around her as she cried. |
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Post by mattie on Aug 9, 2012 20:54:08 GMT -5
By the time I had gotten his text and had the energy to come up with an answer, he was already here, wrapping his arms around me. I leaned into his chest and cried, inhaling is familiar scent, his voice only making me cry harder. This was going to kill me.
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Post by Tori on Aug 9, 2012 21:03:37 GMT -5
Ethan
I pulled back a little to look down at her but still held her. "What's wrong?" I asked softly and calmly but inside it was killing me.
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Post by mattie on Aug 9, 2012 21:06:37 GMT -5
I looked up at him, staring at his beautiful face, trying to blink back as many tears as I could, but not doing too much good. "I..Im leaving, Ethan," I choked out before it all starting to hit me again and I cried into his chest again.
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Post by Tori on Aug 9, 2012 21:15:51 GMT -5
Ethan
I was shocked and wanted to cry myself but I held together. I didnt say anything, I just held her tighter.
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Post by mattie on Aug 9, 2012 21:18:35 GMT -5
I wrapped my arms around him and hugged his close, never wanting to let go. I only had an hour of this left and I didnt want to go.
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Post by Tori on Aug 9, 2012 21:21:37 GMT -5
Ethan
"You're going to be okay." I whispered softly, tilting her head up and kissing her forehead. Inside it hurt.
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Post by mattie on Aug 9, 2012 21:22:23 GMT -5
"I...I don't want to leave," i sobbed, "I want to stay here."
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Post by Tori on Aug 9, 2012 21:23:53 GMT -5
Ethan
I wiped her tears. "I know.. I dont want you to leave either.."
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Post by mattie on Aug 9, 2012 21:49:02 GMT -5
"This isn't fair," I cried into his chest.
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Post by Tori on Aug 9, 2012 22:08:35 GMT -5
Ethan
"I know, its not. I wish you could stay." I said. It was getting harder and harder to keep my emotions hidden.
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Post by mattie on Aug 10, 2012 13:24:36 GMT -5
I sobbed into his shirt for a few more moments before doing the best I could to stop. I pulled away a little to look at his face. "I only have an hour," I whispered.
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Post by Tori on Aug 10, 2012 16:55:00 GMT -5
Ethan
I nodded, crushed. "Then lets make the most of it."
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Post by mattie on Aug 11, 2012 22:24:46 GMT -5
I nodded, trying to wipe away all the tears and spend some final time with Ethan.
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